however, that didn't work too.
don't ask me why. (",)
30.10.05
how terrible.
you stopped someone from helping you. what right have you, huh?
this is insanity. no, something real worse than insanity.
you violently reacted when a dear friend was doing everything in her power to help.
shame on you, o gabriel.
that's just plain mean.
didn't you realize until now what that very person had gone through?
that was just blatantly cruel.
she was trying to help. what's your problem?
and come on, you can't do it on your own. can you? NO! that's the problem.
YOUR PROBLEM, to be precise.
yeah, your intentions might be at face value correct, but what you just DID say...
...was tantamount to spitting on her face and telling her that she get lost and forget it!
you just broke your dear friend's heart, and your "sorry" will never be enough.
no, everything's not over yet, but like you always say, things will never be the same.
that's it. so geroff and scram, gabriel. you're a big idiot.
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so much for my future layout searching. this steely darkness is here to stay.
and admit it, a blogger's life is nothing without drama, damnit.
g_b got tired of senseless ranting by 21:35. |
it was just about now when i noticed that people write things about themselves in the profile section of their online diaries. then i looked at my former blog sites, and, it was like... whoa, am i really that weird?
so maybe it's time for a bit of change, a touch of conventionalism. for once, at least.
well, you see the guy in the picture? yeah, that spectacled boy running in haste? that's supposed to be me, j. gabriel de leon y limpin... what does j stand for, you ask? it's for me to know and for you to find out if you still don't know.
i'm a 16-year old boy who wears a pair of glasses, sports unkempt hair, and usually dons loose clothes. i might look a bit plump in the drawing, but in actuality i'm a tall, dark, skinny, frail guy who always forgets to drink his milk and take his breakfast. up to know i still wonder how come i stand at five-feet-eight-inches but weigh only 102 pounds...
way back then, i was a small, plump kid who showed a lot of promise. during parties, my mom and dad would usually strut around and boast of how intelligent, how healthy, how handsome i was. for eight or so years, that had been the case. i got my share of respect, like this little prince...
then came a heartbreak, and high school.
inexplicably, i suddenly became a complacent and idle guy who fell in love with my personal computer too much, even to the point of forgetting if i already had dinner. i was transformed into a student ridiculously full of potential but never getting to use the stuff. i developed a very healthy sleeping habit that made me garner the honorable distinction of being the student earliest for the nth class.
high school went on, heartbreaks pursued at will, and down to oblivion went that once promising young kid. so much for the pride of my parents.
today, i still look back to him. in fact, i'm trying to revive him, after four years of dormancy, or something more like stagnation. impossible, yes, but it's worth a try. too late, maybe, but i'll prove that it's not.
