however, that didn't work too.
don't ask me why. (",)
26.10.05
waw. isang buwan na nagdaan. ang bilis talaga... at andami na nga talagang nagbago. oo, ilang beses ko nang sinabi yan... pero yun lang talga yung bagay na naramdaman ko ng sobra, at yung napansin ko sa sarili ko...
ikaw ba... napansin mo rin yun? tingin mo totoo yung mga sinasabi ko?... o wala ka pa ring pakialam hanggang ngayon, pagkalipas ng isang buwan? pagkatapos kong magtikom ng labi at manahimik?
hay. ba't ko pa nga pala sinasabi ito sayo? baket, may inaasahan pa ba ako sayo? hinahanap? hinihingi?
....ewan! naiinis na naman ako sa sarili ko. eto na naman eh! napapabalik ako sa dating mga gawi ko. dahil sayo! tsk. pero wala rin namang mawawala sa akin kung sabihin ko ito. wala na ring saysay ang lahat... tama???
hmmm... eto na. alam mo ba namimiss na kita? totoo yan! sorry kung mukha na akong walang pakialam sayo ngayon, kung hindi kita kinakausap o pinapansin, pero maniwala ka saken... totoo yan.
oo, andami na ngang nagbago, pero kung tingin mo kasabay nun ang pagkawala ng lugar mo sa buhay ko, basahin mo ito... corny na kung corny, pero malaking bahagi ng puso ko ay nakalaan pa rin para sayo... at walang makakapalit sa lugar mo dun...
kaya maghihintay lang ako....
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here ends my first mushy and haplessly senseless blog entry. bwiset. haha!!!! (",) forget what i did say here, if you please... :)
g_b got tired of senseless ranting by 17:19. |
it was just about now when i noticed that people write things about themselves in the profile section of their online diaries. then i looked at my former blog sites, and, it was like... whoa, am i really that weird?
so maybe it's time for a bit of change, a touch of conventionalism. for once, at least.
well, you see the guy in the picture? yeah, that spectacled boy running in haste? that's supposed to be me, j. gabriel de leon y limpin... what does j stand for, you ask? it's for me to know and for you to find out if you still don't know.
i'm a 16-year old boy who wears a pair of glasses, sports unkempt hair, and usually dons loose clothes. i might look a bit plump in the drawing, but in actuality i'm a tall, dark, skinny, frail guy who always forgets to drink his milk and take his breakfast. up to know i still wonder how come i stand at five-feet-eight-inches but weigh only 102 pounds...
way back then, i was a small, plump kid who showed a lot of promise. during parties, my mom and dad would usually strut around and boast of how intelligent, how healthy, how handsome i was. for eight or so years, that had been the case. i got my share of respect, like this little prince...
then came a heartbreak, and high school.
inexplicably, i suddenly became a complacent and idle guy who fell in love with my personal computer too much, even to the point of forgetting if i already had dinner. i was transformed into a student ridiculously full of potential but never getting to use the stuff. i developed a very healthy sleeping habit that made me garner the honorable distinction of being the student earliest for the nth class.
high school went on, heartbreaks pursued at will, and down to oblivion went that once promising young kid. so much for the pride of my parents.
today, i still look back to him. in fact, i'm trying to revive him, after four years of dormancy, or something more like stagnation. impossible, yes, but it's worth a try. too late, maybe, but i'll prove that it's not.
